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I have discovered a new love for copying scripture.  Well, I should say a love for a new technique as I have always loved writing out scripture in various journals.  The world of Pinterest has opened up a new creative gateway for me, and I love it!! I have pinned thousands (literally) of font and doodling and scripture verses and quote pins as inspiration.  I began by simply copying what I saw others do as I had no original ideas of my own, but quickly I found that my own ideas began forming onto the pages…thank You, Abba…every good and perfect gift is from Him.  I started with my favorite verses that I had already memorized or had been trying to memorize for years and found that those I have struggled with were finally sticking.  I could see my journal page in my head as I searched for the exact words.  Again, Thank You, God!

Why am I excited about something that is seemingly insignificant?  One may ask, why is it a big deal that you can come up with your own ideas for how to write out a word on a page or that you can finally memorize a verse containing only a few short phrases?  To me, it is very significant.  It is significant because I have asked God to show me how to be creative.  I have asked Him to help me memorize and recall things as this has been one of the most difficult things for me to do in my brain.  I have asked Him to help me for decades for various things.  And for decades He has come through and given me things that only He could; not only for these small seemingly insignificant things, but for the HUGE, very significant things.  It is the foundation of trusting Him.  He has told His people to remember all the things that God has done for them so their children will know that He is trustworthy.  I am now on the parenting side of this concept, and I see how crucial it is to show our children how God has loved and cared for us.  He has saved us with His very own blood and sacrifice.  He has CONQUERED death by walking out of that tomb.  And He is the Light that leads us through this dark world as He is preparing our eternal Home.  And frankly, this earthly place that I live and breathe in each day seems to get darker by the day.  I have prayed for years and lived out the be anxious for nothing verse, because I knew a time when the anxieties just about buried me.  I seek Him daily, thank Him daily, depend on Him daily, cuz I’m very much afraid of the dark both literally and figuratively.  It is not because I’m super spiritual or religious.  It’s because I’m desperate for Him and the safety that is only found in Him.  I’m scared and my heart hurts from the wounds this world gives.  When I turn to Him and thank Him for all of it, He lights up my life and I can take another step down the dark hallway of life.  And today while strolling through Pinterest, this verse was on my feed.  I knew it was my next verse to journal as I sit here in the darkness depending on my LORD that WILL BE my LIGHT.  IMG_8280

It seems as though I have fallen quite behind in my counting.  Truth be told it’s been a challenging four days.  So here I am with a list of 12…better late than never. 🙂

3 Gifts Behind a Door

1. & 2.  Outside is behind two of our doors in our home.  One leads to our backyard, and one to our front.  I love both of these spaces equally.  Our backyard is a beautiful sanctuary now covered with snow and ice and is a feeding area for a plethora of birds and squirrels.  The chubby squirrels look at me through the window when they can find no more sunflower seeds or apple cores.  They make me smile.  They remind me of how God continually provides for me.  I love my backyard animals.  IMG_7516And my front door leads to our front garden.  We inherited a beautiful flower garden from the previous owner and then incorporated a small vegetable garden within it a few years ago.  And of course, there are a few bird feeders tucked in here and there.  Year round I see God’s life all around me.  IMG_2941

3.  Solitude.  Quiet moments in which I can just sit silently and hear and see His love for me.

3 Ways You Feel the Love of God

1.  I think it is obvious at this point that I feel His love through His creation every day.  I cannot get enough of it.  My heart soars when I see tiny toes of infants, shining eyes of children, wrinkled smiling eyes of the aging, the bright red of the cardinals, or the variations in all the sparrows.  And how do I even begin to describe the textures and shapes of all the leaves of the trees and flowers?  And the sunrises & sunsets?  The brilliance of the moon!  And I love rocks of all sorts and sizes.  I really could just keep going. IMG_7588

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2.  My farmer.  His voice.  His smile.  His touch.  His warmth.  His heart.  His unconditional and continual love.  His covering of prayer over me always.  His creativity.  His intentional acts of service.  His absolute love of Jesus.IMG_7399

3.  God’s Word.  It is a constant that I absolutely cannot live without.  Through it, He instructs, warns, admonishes, and sings over me.  He tells me who I am and who He IS!  It is my life line and He has given it to me in written word but has taught me how to hide it deep in my heart.  Oh, Abba, my heart must sing out to you in praise!  Thank YOU!

A Gift in Losing, Finding, Making Something

I count as a gift losing fear.  I believe Him.  He tells me not to fear because He is with me, that He will fight for me.  He has gone before me and comes behind me and encompasses me with His power and protection and wisdom.  He tells me that nothing is impossible with Him.  He asks me, “If I am for you, who can stand against you?” He tells me that He can do immeasurably more than all I could ever ask or imagine.  He tells me that I am His.  I believe Him.  And when I can’t, I call out His Name and He helps me believe Him.  And I believe Him…again.

Finding peace is the next gift I count.  See above paragraph.  A verse I often recite while falling asleep is Psalm 4:8. “I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O LORD, make me dwell in safety.” In losing fear, I find absolute peace.

A gift I count in making something is the ability to knit.  I have been knitting since 2007, and it has been a fun gift.  I enjoy teaching others to knit and making all sorts of gifts for friends and family.  Rarely a day goes by when I don’t knit something.

3 Gifts in Shadows

In order for a shadow to exist, light must be present.

1.  The Light of the World…our Jesus

2.  Lamplight and electricity

3.  Candlelight.  I love the dancing shadows that a flickering candle creates.

So much to thank Him for each day.

When I read this passage this morning, I realized this sums everything up.  He overwhelms me with Himself, oh how I love Him!  Thank You, Abba.

Psalm 34:4-7

I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears.  Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame.  This poor man called, and the LORD heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles.  The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them.

May we have eyes to see how He has encamped around us and the understanding of His deliverance.  How differently would we live if we truly believe this truth?

Father God, may I continually see you encamped about me and always believe your truth.  Be glorified!  Be glorified!


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